EINN :)

HELLO EVERYBODY

Einn
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Temasek Polytechnic
Internet & Multimedia Development

Sunday, March 04, 2007

life' s been pretty much up and down for me lately. slacking at home like a couch potato this whole week. im either reading or just watching the tv. pretty humdrum isnt it? hmm. in a minute i can be so high and hyper and the next i can be so quiet, wallow myself into deep depressing thoughts and get easily annoyed at the slightest thing. what happened thr? gosh. idk. been really quite sensitive lately. hurhur. well, i dont tink its the boredom cos i am kinda enjoying this break. so why? since the holidays, the first thing that i always do when i wake up each morning, is to figure and plan what i should do for the day. but ironically, it always ends up differently. the more time i spent trying to figure what i should do next, i will end up thinking about other random stuffs that in the end either teach me a lesson or just brings me further into other thoughts and make me, well, even more upset. i jolly well know that the more you think the more paranoid u'll get, but..how? i just keep thinking and thinking and thinking. thinking about stuffs that happens in this mundane life of mine. there's really alot of thoughts going thru my mind rite now. and i dont wish to list em' down just here. anws, was watching this vcd my dad wanted me to see. hmm. and great, it makes me mull over my life even more. but it does brings me ever so closer to HIM. which is of course a comforting thought. hmm. maybe all this thinking just come creeping up when you feel alone and i dont know..just out of place(?). now im just searching for things tht'll make me happy. something tht i can look forward to, to keep myself from getting gloomy and cheerless.

ever feel like you dont belong? that sometimes your presence is just unwanted? and whatever you do is amiss in his/her eyes? hmm.

i dont need your empathy or your advise. listen. thts all i need and ask for.